The past few days have been a whirlwind of synchronicities, symbols, and revelations — offering deep insights that feel perfectly timed with the new moon, this black new moon in Capricorn. As structures and ideas fall, chaos reigns in this house, and the unknown beckons, I sense a powerful invitation to pause, reflect, and let go of control. All things that sound preposterous to me! This writing tries to capture the essence of those moments and the threads that connect them all, reminding me that sometimes, the best course of action is to embrace the flow.
The Emergence of a Symbol
For years, a symbol has resurfaced during pivotal moments in my life. First appearing on the night of a life-altering earthquake in 1976, it became a constant companion through every emotional low, each time bringing with it a sense of comfort but at the same time haunting mystery.
I searched for its meaning for years, getting somewhat close but never quite there, drawing it endlessly and even tattooing it onto my skin in 2017, but it wasn’t until recently that I started connecting the dots. Through knots, lemniscates, and endless Mobius loops, this symbol has been a binding force — tying together my past experiences with today's revelations. It feels as though the universe has been weaving this symbol into my life, inviting me to understand its deeper significance. But me being me, I was totally oblivious to all of this.
Synchronicities: A Web of Meaning
This morning, I woke up feeling empty — a vast, hollow space within me. It felt important to sit with this, to stay with the feeling of not knowing. In that emptiness, I realised that sometimes, I rely too much on external tools — like cards, books, theories or even the guidance of others. As I stayed with this awareness, a flood of synchronicities began to emerge.
I thought about the serpent, the Uraeus, rising above the lemniscate — a symbol of wisdom and transcendence. And then, I remembered my tattoo. Suddenly, the Mobius loops, knots, bows and symbols from my past began to fall into place. They weren’t random — they were guiding markers, reminders of the threads that bind us to deeper truths. From the earthquake to my MRes work, from my compulsive glue-gunning loops in paper during my BA to knotting strands of cotton on trees during my outdoor art experimentation; from the repetitive image of the 1920 "No. 2a, The Current Standpoint of the Mahatmas" by Hilma af Klint [the focus of my BA dissertation] to intense experiences of Oneness; from repeated images, cards and books representing the ouroborus in all its variations to my end-of-year piece informed by the Third Insight of the Celestine Prophecy [exhibition which by the way opened on the anniversay of the earthquake]... these symbols have been there, quietly waiting for me to see their full significance. Popping up in the most unexpected places and at the most incredible times. Sometime quietly. Most of the time very loudly and I still could not see. To show me that they have always been with me. To show me that when I was so tired I could barely float [impossible even to think I could swim] they were my spiritual, existential, emotional emergency towing buoys with their flickering light to lead me home. Even if I didn't know, even if I didn't realise. To tell me I was safe, always and regardless. That I was protected. That I was seen.
Tarot’s Message: Chaos, Structure, and the Flow of Life
The tarot, my daily wise guide, gave me clarity through four potent cards today: Contra Naturum, Stannum, Saturni, and Masa Confusa from the Alchemical Deck by Kim Krans. Together, they delivered a powerful message: there’s beauty in the breakdown; the best course of action is to observe, wait, and do nothing; freedom comes from embracing the groundlessness and fighting against the flow is futile.
These cards remind me that while everything feels unstable, this it the time when we must be radically open, accepting that nature has its own way. The lotus blooms from mud and we cannot force the uncontrollable. When we allow ourselves to fall freely into the unknown, the universe has a chance to catch us in ways we never expected.
What now?
As I sit with all these insights on the cusp of the new moon this evening, I’m reminded that we are not meant to have all the answers right now. The lessons of Saturn, the ever-present chaos, and the symbols that bind us together are all part of a larger cosmic dance. For now, I embrace the space of not knowing and the magic that arises from surrender. And yes, it is still very uncomfortable. But learning to stay, to sit at the centre of the lemniscate is all that it requested of me, right now.
In the days to come, I will carry these revelations forward — trusting that as I move with the flow, the next step will reveal itself. For now, I rest in the beauty of the unknown, letting the new moon’s energy of structure and transformation guide me into the next chapter.
earnestly, yours.
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